Believe

I was having a good, long weekend until i got really bored from doing nothing. Well i thought this would be a good way for me to relax and get all energised for my busy week ahead.

I spent my nights watching TV and coincidentally, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium and Kung Fu Panda was on, both on the same time but different day. Both stories were about believing in one's self. I'm the kind of person who believes in signs and of course i believe in the thing called everything-happens-for-a-reason.

I felt bored because there was nothing exciting. But i think it was more than that. I really felt that nothing significant is really happening in my life right now. I felt empty for a moment. And it feels like shit. One moment, i felt like travelling the world and the next, i felt that my life is totally empty. I'm not sure if this feeling is a turning point for me, but it sure feels like it.

So i sat down and thought about it for awhile. It could mean nothing, or was it a random feeling? I'm not really sure about all of this. But what's for sure is the drive and the need for me to feel alive - to love, to play, to wander around, to jump, to dance, etc (those things that would excite every single ounce of being in me).

Maybe if i would just believe that i have it or i'll encounter it soon enough, it'll actually happen. I don't know when, but i have a feeling it's gonna be soon. Maybe it starts with someone i'll meet. Or maybe it'll start with me. Either way, it's gonna be an awesome way to end the year with.

The amazing thing is, my instinct is telling me not to resist this, no matter what. It's gonna be an awesome ride, maybe one that'll be the ride of my life. A ride that i'll share with the people i love.

Goodnite world and don't stop believing :)